Musings

Musings

- March 08, 2021

A journal entry. 3AM. December. 2020. Thoughts. Meditation. Paraphrasing ideas.

We have known sins. We have secret sins. We have sins we acknowledge openly before God. We have sins known only to God. The person who goes about to justify himself, and to plead a righteousness of his own, makes his defence his offence, and his own mouth condemns him even in his effort to acquit himself.

Only a good man knows the deceitfulness of his own heart, for in his care in guarding it he often discovers many sins that have slipped by unnoticed, laying silently undiscovered. He knows more to be suspicious of evil in himself than he is really conscious of, and therefore will by no means think of justifying himself before God. There is helplessness is knowing he sins. There is also hope in admitting he sins.

If any man say he has no sin, not only does he deceive himself but he lays great offence to God; for in saying he has no sin he sins, and declares the truth of God to be a lie, for God Himself has concluded all under sin.

Man's assumption of sinlessness prove himself instead to be perverse, proud, ignorant, and presumptuous. I may think myself to be perfect, yet I do not know my soul. I would not be mindful about extending my life longer while it is laden with all these miseries.

Though my conscience is free from guilt I do not believe my heart. When it insists on my innocency at the end of my years I will in no wise contend with God, for it is utter folly. After rendering wholehearted service for the kingdom's cause I am left with nothing to plead for myself, but instead I throw myself at the mercy of God.

Comments

Kletos Covenantal Ministries is a small house gathering of Christians inside Brgy. Batia, Bocaue, Bulacan standing solely on the absolute authority, sufficiency, and inerrancy of God's Holy Word by the power of the Holy Spirit for the glory of God, the Father of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. We are Presbyterian in church polity. We adhere strongly to the Westminster Confession of Faith (Larger and Smaller), the Athanasian and Nicene Creeds, and the Heidelberg Catechism. Our emphasis is on prayer, experimental/experiential preaching, the active proclamation of God's word in public, catechism, and daily intentional Family Worship in the homes.

Who I Am

I am a husband, and a father.

I am a mere recipient of my Father's mercy by the gracious merit of my Lord and Savior, Jesus, the Christ of God.
An unprofitable servant.

Raised as a Roman Catholic, lived like a demon for 24 years in that religion, became a "Christian" and joined a rich church twice, while living as a hypocrite for 19 more years, 14 of those in adultery. Finally found by Christ out of his own good mercy, convicted of my severe offenses, I realized I was helplessly lost. Regenerated and renewed according to the will of God through Christ and the power of the Holy Spirit. Granted the gift of repentance and faith. Was saved. Washed in the blood of the Lamb. Passed from death unto life. Justified. Dying daily in sanctification. Soon to be glorified.

I pray in God's mercy that I may endure to the end carrying His name, proclaiming His kingdom, and preaching the good news of Christ's salvation, the good work of regeneration by the Holy Spirit, and the victorious power of the Resurrection unto sanctification which is in Christ Jesus, to all who will believe and behave the gospel.

I do not believe Christ saved me to merely hide inside a church building to be a good member, but He enlisted me to be a warring soldier for His kingdom to come; nor do I believe the Holy Spirit indwells in a believer and lets him live as the same old person prior to being saved. If, despite my service, the most Sovereign Lord assigns me to hell at the end, then I have no merit of my own to present to him for myself, other than that which is found in Christ. Though I deserve His justice, I can only plead His mercy. Regardless, God is still truly worthy of all service, worship, and praise.

I am in no way superior, more good, or better than the person I meet on the street. The only difference is I fully realize that I am a guilty criminal before God and that I rightly deserve to die under his justice, yet by His mercy and grace He forgave me - and so I am eternally grateful for this act of kindness that no good act in my entire life can ever truly repay. The common "churchian" knows this, yet has no evidence for it. I am of no such company.

Out of gratitude, I willingly set out to fulfill the Great Commission of proclaiming the good news about the Lord Jesus Christ where all the fishes are - out on the street. Faithfully declaring the clear Gospel of repentance unto salvation, which is able to save to the uttermost, the newness of life in Christ, the persecution that comes with such profession, and the terrifying wrath & judgment of God to come upon the sons of disobedience.

If I lift Him up therefore, He will in turn draw His elect to Himself, thus glorifying the Father, who deserves the reverence He demands from all people and creation. May the Lamb that was slain receive the reward for his suffering.

Grace alone.
Faith Alone.
Christ alone.
Scripture alone.
For the glory of God alone.