Volume Two

A late but yet most timely addition to my library. This second volume by Arnold Dallimore, which details the loss of Howell Harris and the conflict between the prideful Wesley brothers and beloved Whitefield, is more explicit than the previous. Some parts of it are so incredible that I find it hard to believe they are true—that even when men of faith are powerfully used by God, they are still only men of sin and wretchedness. Far from what I imagined them to be "men of God", this book presents a more detailed view of their humanity, turmoil, and disputations. Though I may never reach the level of ministry usefulness as they had, I am reminded to be in continual self-examination as I strive towards faithfulness with the few and the little entrusted to my care. 

Pride is a trait all sons of Adam share, but humility is an emblem of heavenly citizenship. Possession of this quiet sin, which is simple to acquire, is damaging and frequently causes irreversible damage in the ministry. Mr. Whitefield is a commendable example of heaven-born humility even in the face of Mr. Wesley's candor. I can almost blame him to a fault for not being angry at how the Wesley's rewarded his kindness. But because of it, greater blessings were bestowed upon Mr. Whitefield's work. The effects of that blessing to Mr. Whitefield's ministry, and the demise of Mr. Wesley's legacy with Methodism, show to this day.

These past several weeks have been, by divine providence, really engrossing for me as I immerse more in my studies and prayers over the direction I am considering. One of my many conditions struck me for the second time in the early morning of the Lord's day as I was writing the message that I can barely stand straight nor speak. But my mind was not about my current situation. It is the least of my burden.